Aškerčevi asi 2026

What I Would Tell My Younger Self There are many things I would like to tell my younger self. “Don’t shave your eyebrows — you’ll regret it!” or “Study more!” I know it’s exhausting, but the feeling of getting a good grade is much more satisfying than scrolling on your phone. All these things had to happen, and I learned from them. (Yes, I only pluck my eyebrows now. I’ve learned my lesson.) But that’s just life, I guess — you make a stupid mistake, but you learn from it. I hate it when people say, “Everything happens for a reason.” No, it doesn’t. Little me didn’t need to go through all the things she did. She didn’t know any better, and she was naïve. I can’t go back and change the past, but if I could, I would comfort her and say: “Your brother and sister still love you. It’s not your fault they left. Things at home are about to get a bit rocky, but you’ll manage. You’ll get angry, you’ll get sad, and you’ll be confused. Remember to let it all out. Cry if you need to cry, punch a pillow if you’re angry. I promise you’ll see them again — not very soon, but trust me, you will.”To my 15 - and 16 -year- old self: “You’ve smoked, haven’t you? You feel cool and rebellious, but it’s about to get worse. The thing you reported to the police won’t be solved. You’ll go to court many times, but it won’t fix anything. I’m genuinely sorry the court wasn’t on your side. I’m sorry you had to see him face -to face in court. It will be over soon. The stress and depression will get to you, and you’ll take the first pill. You’ll feel good for a few hours, but when the comedown hits, you’ll want more. Sadly, I can’t stop you. You’ll get addicted and do things I wish you hadn’t done. The people around you aren’t real friends — they feed your addiction and don’t really care. You’re so deep into it that help doesn’t seem like an option. I get it — you don’t want to go home. You seek comfort in substances instead of your parents. You’ll run away from home, but the last time will be the worst. He’ll hurt you. You might not realise it right away, but you will soon. You’ll be embarrassed, and he’ll take advantage of that. It’ll happen again. This time, you’ll be too drugged to realise or to defend yourself. If it’s any comfort, you won’t remember it fully later. There will be a third time. You’ll come home on the third day. You’ll be hospitalized for a while, but it only gets better from there. Rehab will be hell, but soon enough, you’ll want to get better. You’ll seek help — and it will get better.” In second grade, you might get bullied a bit and hear stupid rumours. It’s awful, I know, but those people feed on your misery, so don’t give them the satisfaction. You’ll get a fantastic boyfriend — a bit dorky, but full of love. You’ll help each other become your best selves. Physical touch will be hard at first, but he won’t push you. Remember to communicate and be honest. See? You’re doing so much better now. It’s been a year since it happened. Look how far you’ve come — I’m proud of you. Third grade is going to be okay. Your grades might be a bit low (I told you to study a week before the test, not the day before), but you’ll push through. It’s your 18th birthday soon. Make sure to party hard — and get the piercing you won’t regret.

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